Jodie (selfhater17) wrote in dp_dr,
Jodie
selfhater17
dp_dr

black out

Hello. I have been a lurker for a while and this is my first time posting.


I have had dp/dr episodes for as long as i can remember but last saturday it was so severe that i essentially blacked out for about three hours. Though blacking out has happened to me before it usually happens at home, whereas my episode on saturday was out in public. It was still terrifying and i was wondering if anyone else ever has it this bad sometimes and how they cope with it - especially when out in public.

More details are on my journal if anyone is interested in reading it but there is a trigger warning on it just in case.
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Do you mean Black out as in you have no clue that of what you were doing or Catatonic, which is similar except you do absolutely nothing when catatonic? Doing something even when your doing nothing...like say eating chips while watching TV can prevent you from short catatonic states, though it doesn't prevent the spacing out. I have watched so many movies and tv shows that I've never seen, my kids get mad because I watch the same shows and swear I have never seen them before, some of them I still haven't seen. It's very irritating, I can't hold a conversation longer than a few yes no answers, before i have to have someone repeat themselves 3 or 4 times. Put yourself on a schedule that will keep you physically active at all times, except bedtime of course. Try not to do the same activities the same way all the time, when activities become routine they no longer require your consciousness. I hate that when I drive..I space out..feel like I fell asleep, but know I didn't, have no clue of how I got from one point to the other in a 60+ mile stretch somtimes.
I have only ever had short sessions of dissociation whilst in public, so that I walked from one end of the shopping centre to the other, or something fairly small like that. It is distressing enough in these small doses, let alone spacing out for hours and not knowing what you got up to in the mean time!

Thankfully, most of my dissociation that occurs outside of my therapy sessions (where I lose touch with reality ALOT, as it is triggered by my anxiety and emotional states) is just de-realisation, so that I feel like the world Im walking through is a film world, or I am in a bubble that detatches me from the world around me.